First off, I did my nails today!!!! I am sooooooo ready for Spring!
Aren't they adorable???? I am just thankful I was actually able to take a min and get them done......I am not sure how I am feeling about these jamberrys yet. I have a blog coming soon about that!! (promise)
Anyhow, now to write......
OK, as many of my readers know about me as of now is that I am Bipolar. Yea, It sucks and yes, I am 37 years old and still learning how to cope with it and it is hard. Always a battle. And I always hate it when it affects my relationships!!! especially with my daughter!!!! (or any of my family)
When your bipolar, a schedule is a MUST!!! At least for me it is???? I need some bipolar friends to talk to sometimes.....smh! Anyhow, my daughter and my grandson moved in with my bf, son and myself back in November. Am I thankful.....YES, is it hard on me??? HECK YES!!! Anyhow, November to Feb I have been adjusting to having her here and also adjusting to a toddler running around and always into something. I have had to adjust to more laundry, but that's OK too. I am thankful we have clothes too wash.....lol I have had to adjust to toys everywhere, but that's OK because at least he has toys. Y'all get what I am saying, right?? I mean, Yes......all of it is an adjustment and yes it is harder on me, but I manage to get through it.
*disclaimer* y'all, I started this blog a couple of weeks ago!!!! And I am just now back on the draft!! Another downfall to being bipolar. I don't have the attention span I need to finish things!!!!
Anyhow, as I was saying, things are just 100x's worse on me then it is on someone without being bipolar!!! And the hardest thing to do is to explain to someone who is aka "normal". norms just don't get it!!!! I have found that writing to y'all does help, I just have to finish what I start!!!
Guess what......so they changed my daughters schedule!! Found this out this week. Her new schedule consist of me keeping my grandson from about 2 pm until 10 am the following morning!!! So, more adjusting!!! BUT!! My daughter and I are doing better, I just hate when I get moody and she don't understand and she gets attitude back and all......just causes more stress but, I am trying to be patient and continue to pray and get through all this!!!! I am thankful that my daughter was blessed with this job since she is mom & dad for my grandson and I promise I am gonna continue to help her achieve her dreams......even if it is hell on me!! Isn't that what moms do??? I mean, my mom wasn't there for me, other things had her attention(RIP). I always said that is something I will always be for my kids.....there for them!!!! That's only what is right!!! right???
Thanks for letting me vent!!!! I know it is all over the place(thanks to being manic) but it does help me cope and get through things!!!!
I hope all of you are doing good and as always #stayblessed
MUAHS!
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