If you're obidient, blessings will come.......

Wow!!  It has been a VERY long time!! and for that, I apologize.  I have been crazy lately!!  I was really busy with my Jamberry business(which, isn't doing grand)  Then.....my baby, yes, my baby boy has started playing football!!  I will do a whole blog on that later ;) That has had me running crazy!!!  And then, I have been finding my place back within the Church. 

I have done a few blogs on my faith and some of the things I go through.  And today, with it being fast Sunday, I wanted to share my testimony on obedience.

I have become real active again!! (YAY)  and I have finally "grown up" I guess is a way to put it.  You know, as a Mormon.......LDS.......we have a TON of rules.  We are counseled from early on about the things we should and shouldn't do.  But I want to let yall know, we hear of the things we should do, but, until we do them, will we ever know for ourselves the blessings our loving Heavenly Father has in store for us!!!

In May of 1833, Joseph Smith had a Revelation:

“Truth is knowledge of things as they are, and as they were, and as they are to come. …

“The Spirit of truth is of God. …

“And no man receiveth a fullness unless he keepeth his commandments.

“He that keepeth [God’s] commandments receiveth truth and light, until he is glorified in truth and knoweth all things.”

What an awesome promise!!!??  I met with my Bishop back in June.  Because I want my patriarchal blessing!!  For those of you who aren't members,  a patriarchal blessing is a blessing or ordinance given by a patriarch to a church member. Patriarchal blessings are modeled after the blessing given by Jacob to each of his sons prior to his death. They are gifts of knowledge and strength of one's coming challenges and blessings.

So, you see why I need one!? Right??  I am 37 yrs old and I NEED this direction in my life!!!  I really do!!  Anyhoo, my meeting went real well.  We discussed what I needed to do and things to work on for the next 3 months to have me ready. and here are the top things I needed to work on.

1.  Being active in Church- This is a HUGE step BUT, I am thankful I am active again!!  I have only missed a couple of Sundays since my meeting with Bishop due to sickness and transportation issues.  Being active in the Church is so important!!  Main reason is to take Sacrament. Sacrament is so important.  It is the time that we can pray and reflect on the week we have had, a time of repentance, a time to remember our covenants we made to our Heavenly Father!!  A time to work on ourselves and make us better for the upcoming week.

                                              

2.  tithing:

Tithing has always been a BIG problem for me.  I do not work.  so, when I get money, I pay my bills and try to hold the rest.  Never been well off financially.  I knew in my heart I was supposed to and I always heard you would be blessed.  I live by the scripture Phil 4:19

                  

But, did I really have all the faith I needed to KNOW my Heavenly Father will provide a way?  I always thought I did, until I buckled down and started paying my tithing!!!  Ways have been made for me and my family for things I wasn't sure how it would've been taken care of.  really.  Let me share my experience recently:

2 years and 2 months ago, my car died.  She has been sitting in my dads back yard since she quit.  I have yet to get her fixed nor have I honestly had the money to fix her.  My son's dad had a ford ranger that I could use.  But, a family of 5 never could ride at the same time.  A couple of weeks ago, the engine locked up which meant we had NO means of transportation!!  I freaked, yes.....I doubted.....yes....did I pray....yes... AND  2 days later, I am in my new(to me) SUV!!  I know have a vehicle that my whole family can fit in comfortably! In 2 days!!!!  Do u see where I am getting at?? How things will happen if you are obedient?? lol I've been paying my tithing and my Heavenly Father has been taking care of me and my family!! 

So, do u see where I am getting at yall??  We can get told of all the blessings that are waiting for us IF we follow his commandments.  But the key word there is IF!!!  U need to make it WHEN, cause blessings do come WHEN we follow his commandments!!

I know our Heavenly Father loves us and wants to take care of us.  He wants to bless us.  I know when we pay our tithing and follow the council of our Prophet and Church Leaders we will also be blessed.  I know that this is the restored Church.  I know Joseph Smith was our 1st Latter Day Prophet!

and I say these things, in the name of Jesus Christ,

Amen

 

wow, so glad things are better for me

happy Sunday y'all!! i was going through my old blog and i found this post from Sept 12, 2008
Have u ever......just sat around and wonder what the real purpose in life was? Ugh! I do all of the time and it drives me bananas. I wonder why I chose this life. I mean, other then my children, what am I here for. What am I to do? I am doing the best that I can to raise my children right. To give them the values to have a happy life. It bothers me though for I am not happy. How can I raise my children to be vibrant caring fun loving adults when it is hard for me to do the same? I want what is best for my children and yes, it may sound a little selfish when I speak about my happiness, how I want what is best for me. Was I put here to make a difference in the world? Am I to make some HUGE change in the world? Right now, day in and day out I do nothing but the same. Everyday. I awake every morning, get my son ready for school. We watch cartoons until about 10 mins b4 his bus, then I have to read him the school menu for the day. I put him on the bus with a hug and a kiss, then watch him ride away. that's when my BORING life really begins. I get a cup of coffee, check my email(which never has anything good), check my myspace and myyearbook. Most of the time there is nothing there so....yay me!! I then get up and do laundry and clean the house. same routine everyday. The only thing that changes is the fact that my friend candi may come by. That at least gives me someone to talk to. then I am here....kota gets home from school, we do homework, he plays while I watch some TV. Then I cook dinner, go for my run. When I get back I give kota his bath and tuck him in. And then about 1 hr later....I am also in the bed!!!!!!this is my life EVERYDAY!! I am on the prowl to find change. Something to get me out of this stupid rut that I call life!!!!!!!
With Thanksgiving around the corner i just want to say how thankful i am that I'm not in this dark place no more!
life has so much more meaning now.


•my kids are growing into happy vibrant adults


•i have friends i see on a regular basis


• yes, i do laundry and everyday household chores, but, i enjoy it


• I'm cherishing the time with my grandson


• going to church


• scripture study and prayer daily

i guess my point to this is:
no matter where you are in life, what your going through..... it does get better. this post was from 6 years ago and looking back, i never knew how dark i felt my life was. reading some of this older stuff is shocking to me. i can't believe that suicide was ever an option for me, but it was.
never give up! i know it's so hard, i have been there. but, please.... reach out, get help if needed, and talk!! there are people out there just like you and there are people who have been where you are. never be afraid to reach out and talk to someone.
NEVER GIVE UP!
MUAHS

and no matter what, smile!